Finding our way. 

I haven’t posted in a few weeks, I guess I felt like I didn’t really have that much to write about. However, I feel like our little family is hitting our stride and that’s blog worthy, right?!

We flew to Hamilton island recently and spent an extra long weekend with my family. Matilda was an absolute dream on the flight. She slept the whole way there and the whole way back. 


This is the kid who sleeps for 30 minutes at a time during the day at home. Which makes me think her catnapping is definitely behavioural. So we’re trying a bit of sleep training this week. I’ll post an update soon! 

Nate got his cast off on Friday and while he’s still a bit sore and stiff, it’s a massive improvement compared to his cast. In fact, I even managed to get out of the house for a few hours on Saturday night with some girlfriends to watch the amazing Hot Potato Band play. 

It was so nice to take my mum hat off for a few hours and have a dance and a sing… Even if I probably averaged a text every 30minutes to Nate checking how they were going! 

Having a few hours away from my little family was just what I needed, even though I wanted them to be right there by my side dancing and singing with me!

I really do feel like Matilda and I have finally started to figure each other out (for now). If anyone had told me how hard it would be to start with – and I’m sure people did – there’s no way I would’ve known what they were talking about.

I think I just assumed from having spent so much time with my nephews that I would know what to do with my tiny human and I also didn’t realise that a something so small could scream so much and survive on next to no sleep! 

Looking back, it passed by so quickly even though I remember saying to Nate at the time “We have at least 10 more weeks of this. I don’t think we will make it”. 


Now my baby is almost sitting up, eating solids and is almost 6 months old. Time can slow down now thanks! 

xx

Brickie 

A Letter to Matilda

  
Dear Tildy,

You’re almost 5 months baby girl. We made it! Although at times I really questioned if we would. 

When you first arrived baby girl, mummy and daddy didn’t know what to do with you. You cried and cried and when I thought surely you would fall asleep, you cried some more. 

When I look back at photos of you from that time, mummy gets upset. Even when you were sleeping you were grimacing and you never looked content. 

When we first brought you home I didn’t enjoy it one bit. I missed my old life and wondered how we would survive. 

But look at you now baby girl! You grizzle when you need something and that’s pretty much it. 

You’ve learnt to squeal with joy and giggle and smile. 

You bring mummy and daddy so much joy and we are already so proud of you. 

We love watching you learn new things and like every other parent does with their babe, we think you’re pretty cute and very clever. 

It makes mummy so happy seeing you happy and your giggle warms my heart. 

Sometimes I lose patience with you, and I’m sorry for that baby girl. Mummy is tired, she forgets that you are just a baby and are moving to the beat of your own drum.  

Never lose that sparkle Tildy. 

Chase your dreams and dream BIG! Find something you love and run with it. For me, it’s writing and exercise. People might make fun of you (trust me – I still get it!) but give them one of your big smiles and move on by, baby girl. 

Maybe you’ll follow in your daddy’s footsteps and be good at every sport you try, or maybe you won’t. That’s ok! I do hope you get his patience and kindness though!

Maybe you’ll love books and being indoors, again, maybe you won’t and that’s ok too! 

I have no idea what will light that fire but I’m excited to watch it burn bright.

I’m sorry I wished away your first 3 months baby girl, but I’m so glad we made it out the other side. 

You and your daddy are my best friends.

We love you to the moon and back!

Love, 

Mummy! 

  

Training with Tildy. 

 

Family stretch time
 
**I use the term training loosely!

I’ve just started getting back into semi-regular training with Matilda in tow. 

It’s slow going that’s for sure. But I’m enjoying it much more than I thought I would!

I’ve got my sights set on the Mudgee Half Marathon in August and maybe one other run prior to this if I can get my shit together! 

I don’t think Tildy will be joining me on the run – I think 2 hours in the pram would see her screaming like a banshee! 

It might make be pick up the pace a little though…!

 

We made it to 5km!
 
I remember when we were looking at prams I said to Nate let’s get a running pram even though I know I’ll try once and probably hate it. 

I imagined it to be like running with a backpack or something else just as awkward and annoying. 

Well, we reached 5.5km last week so it can’t be THAT bad!

It feels good to be slowly getting back into the swing of things. Matilda’s feeding is still pretty awful and her sleeping was shocking but it’s just started to improve, so it’s important that I have a release.

Pre-Tildy I would have scoffed at running anything less than 5km on a BAD day and was regularly disappointed in my pace. These days I’m stoked to get over 4km and pace is more out of curiosity than any sort of gauge…

It’s refreshing to have this perspective on training. I’m much more grateful just being able to get out of the house. It’s no longer feeling like I HAVE to exercise – I WANT to!

I have also realised how important it is for me to get out and about with Matilda. Having started training again, feels like I have a piece of my pre-Tildy self back and it feels nice. Anyone who has kids can tell you that your whole world is turned upside down when you have a baby, and it’s nice to start piecing together a new, modified version of myself!

I’ve also come to realise that by taking better care of me, I can take better care of Matilda. 

Since we’ve started running again, I’m finding myself eating a bit better, actually feeling like I have more energy and just a more positive outlook which are all super important. 

I know Matilda is too little to remember these days, but I like to think I am setting a good example for her and laying the foundations for her love of sport and exercise. 

I think the next addition will be a bike with a seat for Tildy! 

xx

Brickie